Departure

A friend of mine once said that sincerity is sometimes terrifying, because we are used to being surrounded by something not so sincere, so when you become too truthful to someone at a time, you are forcing him to face the real himself and you, which is far too difficult for him, some, maybe a lot.

I encountered this saying today when I’m looking for something else and chewed it for a while, and realised that this might be the source of my problem with some. This is nothing but ironic. You got too close and too truthful to someone that you frighten them. But, this is also, VERITAS.

One feels loads better if he has less expectations. This at least worked for me. When I downgraded you from a friend to an acquaintance or a mere colleague, everything seems easier and more natural. Though this might not be (or actually indeed is not) the result I looked for, this is what worked out to be. I acknowledge it. And I might accept it, in the future.

Things went wrong and they do go and will go wrong when not guided. Unfortunately I do not usually influence the way my life goes, so it is largely unguided. I’m waiting for my vacation and hope this physical retreat from this mess will do me good. However, I can almost literarily see that this will not be a peaceful vacation, not in any sense.

Mind is not set yet. I hope I never need to make this choice but this is not realistic.

Departure? Shrug.